“For this child I prayed, and the LORD hath given me my petition which I asked of Him.” I Samuel 1:27
In the midst of pain for what she could not have on her own, Hannah found herself willing and ready to offer back to the Lord what was already His. Her heart and mind had been brought to the knowledge and awareness that it would take a miracle for her to conceive; in such a case, what only God could give to her, she vowed back to Him, realizing that this was not to be her son, but God’s.
We will find that what we desire or ask for [from God] is not ours at all (though we may have the pleasure of being stewards of His welcomed gifts). We will find in prayer, that we will better receive when we give back to God that which we cannot rightly keep anyways.
We are not to consume God’s gifts upon our own desires and lusts, but for His purposes and glory. James 4:3 says: “You ask, and receive not, because you ask amiss, that you may spend it upon your lusts.” Hannah asked with a heart already surrendered and an attitude resolved to give back what she desired so badly. When she died to her dream and found that God was the only one who could raise up this miracle in her womb, she received a heavenly blessing. She was given a son that was dedicated to God.
In prayer we must die to our own requests, our own desires and come to the point of full surrender to God’s will…we must pray His will – not ours – or we will become lost in the moment that ours is not answered. When we have been so molded and conformed to an understanding of what God desires of us, no sacrifice will be too great to give Him. What is mine must become His if I am to expect the blessings of abiding in prayer.